An example of how two things can be true and exist simultaneously and the complexity of holding that:

1) Occasionally, I smile proudly, knowing I achieved one of my life goals of getting an offer of admission to the University of Victoria.

2) I can’t accept it. I can’t go. I’m too chronically ill. I don’t have proper healthcare. I can’t fight against my body anymore. Insert complex grief.

Holding space for both accomplishment and defeat at once is a complex experience. I wanted to share and shine a light ☀️ on this experience if you’re also walking along a similar path.

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#ChronicIllness #MentalHealth

@britt Oh Britt Congratulations and I'm so very sorry.
@Alison 🫶🏻 *hugs* I’ll take both the love and solidarity. Thank you, friend.
@britt Very welcome. Chronic illness sucks hard. Big hugs

@britt

I live w/MS, 3 kinds of arthritis, 2 other autoimmune things. They cost me HUGE amounts of brainspace/energy.

I'm 60, not done living yet. But only now have I even had *time/space* to live creative dreams I've had since age 5—my life's purpose.

For 45yrs, I've served family, employers, community—always fighting for creative time/space for myself.

Now I make short films, podcast, publish—FINALLY! Except aging has arrived, adds to my constant pain/exhaustion 🤬

#ChronicIllness #Unfair