I want negatives in life to go away, stop shoving itself in my face, adding more layers to the PTSD.
I believe, if we ignore the negatives, negatives continue to dig deep pits in my life.
So I talk about it, to call out the negatives, put a stop to it, to get rid of the negatives. Negatives have to be acknowledged.
Cant fix a problem without knowing what the problem is.
Most of my problems come from other people.
I cant fix other people.
45 yrs fixing myself, isnt much more I can do.
Have you tried meditation? There are many forms for different people ( & situations ) like different medicine for each patient ( & symptoms )
Tried conventional meditation for years & gave up. It was like trying to still the surface of water with the palm of my hand.
Tried TM ( https://tm.org ) which worked wonders for me & delivered on the promise of curing insomnia from day 1.
Many Osho meditations ( https://osho.com/ ) are useful.
Try & see what works for you. 🙂
@purrperl I have tried to get meditation... I was abused and locked up before I could get there.
Had a friend who was into sahasha (spelling?) yoga, but I couldnt relax.
Being left alone relaxes me.
The world wont leave me alone.
Phone calls, paperwok, schedules... I have hired someone else to do all that, but the stuff still bombards itself into my life, and the neighbors dogs wont STFU.
I color in complex coloring pages.
I dont know anything more relaxing than that.
What I learned from meditation teachers is— just sit and relax, as if sitting in your room with the door open. Let thoughts come and go as they will, even negative thoughts. The more you fight them, the worse it gets. It will be uncomfortable at first, to be surrounded by your own negative thoughts. Think of thoughts as guests, some welcome and some unwelcome. Ignore the unwelcome ones silently, don't chase them out. The welcome ones, serve them tea, and invite them to visit again.
@purrperl I like your advice here.
"The more you fight them, the worse it gets." I've lived all my life fighting against having the feelings that my parents punished me for having...
I keep forgetting that I am allowed to feel bad.
I thank you for the reminder.
Green Roc Thoughts
Ashwin Dixit