Mastodawn

Started a new book on #OCD today. My life is such a skipfire I can feel the OCD closing in on me, and I don't like it.

It's sad because over the last 5 years- I've improved it a lot. But with how life is now? It's popping up in new places, and it's exhausting.

I can see why, my life is out of control: I'm jobless (and despite all the effort there's no results), I lost my dream healthcare career, I've had to move back home, my disabilities are spiralling, and the world is further collapsing.

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Bloo (they/she) 🍓 🏳️‍⚧️ 🍉

The problem with #OCD is that it takes advantage of a power vacuum like this. I feel powerless right now in basically every area of my life. And so, my OCD is filling that gap.

The shitty thing about #MentalHealth is that so much of it is compounded by this suffocating system we're all living under. As a #disabled #trans person, the pressures are amplified.

Ugh.