<undef>The hardest thing for me with being autistic and having gone through so many autistic burnouts is having to let go of things and plans constantly.
Right now I would've had two trips coming, one short starting tomorrow, and a longer one over the Easter. And I have to cancel the latter. Just don't have the spoons for it, even today is almost a shutdown day for me.
I had some bigger plans too, to learn a certain language and go volunteer abroad, get involved with the international side of autistic activism and peer-support. But that's not going to happen now either. I tried, it drove me deeper into burnout and caused me to drop pretty much everything for a while during the winter.
Not going to say some of these things won't happen in the future, but they won't happen the way I hoped or thought they would now, that is, they won't happen with me driving them, trying to make them happen. They might happen some other way, but it *has* to be a way that's organic and sustainable for my pickled brain.