@theeclecticdyslexic three of the images are my sex pest father who bullies and manipulates me my whole life. Same goes for my sister and the only reason i wound up in this house was because i had injuries and when i got here the tone changed to nonstop gaslight, harassment, lying, abuse.

One of the images is with a friend i trust.

@bug I see, ya unfortunately it's hard for me, without more experience of these people to identify the gas lighting... As is sort of by design in gas lighting.

I hope your injuries heal quickly!

@bug I don't mean it as a strike against you.

I am always wary of taking anyone's side completely in relationship dynamics. I've learned that people are very complicated, and it's hard for me to take anything at face value.

@theeclecticdyslexic in case it matters, my father is someone who manipulates people with lies and intimidation all his life. He is known to have illegally squatted on a piece of property for many years. When I asked him those years ago why there was a bagged and tied refrigerator in the back of a nasty old shed there, he snapped and said "there's two bodies in there." He has had maybe six wives, idk. They go missing idk.

I am a furtive human, honest to a fault but weak. Smart, caring, injured.

@theeclecticdyslexic he is also horribly obsessed with sex, to the point of ditching my sister and i as well as his seedy hobby shop business (the back of which was distastful pornography studio) in the 90s to break a younger woman's heart. She had a 13 year old kid. Dunno.

When I stay with him his showers always smell like feces, and various pornography hoards were always around. I was exposed to videos of him performing obscene acts. Due to this spiraling, my older brother also raped me. So .

@theeclecticdyslexic like, my mother had a kid (said brother) with a strip club owner. That man nearly beat her to death many times. She was a dancer. My dad operated a strip club across the street. That was in the bay area, California, 1980s.

I got away from this town and had a ton of growing up to do. I did that. However discrimination against physically disabled and trans people was made legal by Trump. I had severe nerve damage from medical malpractice. I became homeless and was raped more.

@bug I see. There is so much there. I'm very sorry you have had to endure all that.

I don't know where your art is! Maybe try posting pieces on here regularly. I see your PFP and your banner, but I only see a link to your Kofi, but I didn't see if it lead to somewhere you put art! I also saw your factorio mods page.

@theeclecticdyslexic

Music https://kikiala.bandcamp.com/

Films https://archive.org/search?query=creator%3A%22kikiala%22 (chapters is my latest novel, is on ao3 also)

I streamed a lot on twitch, drawing and performing

Bsky, it's similarly just my pleas for freedom lately https://bsky.app/profile/kikiala.bsky.social

I have not had clean internet nor phone, and too hard to endure abuses to draw much lately

Photos https://bsky.app/profile/kikiala.bsky.social/post/3lwnsycxbqs2z

I'll have to resuscitate old bsky for drawings

@bug they don't need to be new ones! Try storing a list of them, maybe post one every couple days. But also, a great way I have found, to get followers on here is to post kind short replies in other people's posts, if they don't have many followers.

I'm pretty new though, I don't have many followers.