Saphira Lohikäärmekettunen 

Short before sleep, lights already off, a night in July 2018

me: .... The closer the local pride event gets, the more I realize I'm not a man
...
then-partner: oh! Also an enby??
me: no...
then-partner: so..a woman?
...
me: ... Yes

That's how I came out and finally accepted this reality about myself. Three days later, on the local pride event, I went out fem presenting - with a lot of help from my then-partner:
https://gotosocial-dev.svc.0x0a.network/@littlefox/statuses/01HM3JW6V0J1TRF5YHX530NSZV

I had told myself that this is a safe way to experiment, because I could always say I was just an ally crossdressing.. luckily never had to pull that card.

A lot has changed since then, besides my initial fears that things would just take forever, everything just worked out somehow. I'm happy with who I am. Still, it wasn't easy - but absolutely worth it.

#TransTimeline

Feb 7 at 4:17amWeb
Show threadSaphira Lohikäärmekettunen Feb 7

For years before already I was helping out at said pride event, so that queer people can just enjoy it, y'know, being a good ally

I was happy doing that; but on that day also always somehow sad and didn't have any idea why

Well, 2018 I wasn't sad, it was my day (and for whatever reasons also was not helping out with that one)

Show threadkira for scaleFeb 7
@littlefox aww i love this
Show threadtwilightFeb 7

@littlefox thank you for sharing. as someone not yet very far in her transition, hearing these stories gives me a lot of hope. thank you 

though, sadly i would be too scared to appear fem in public, but i think with time it will be easier, and it's also why i prefer starting hrt before doing any changes in my clothing (and clothing is not gendered after all :p). i've already started to out myself more and more to people irl, so there's that

Show threadSaphira Lohikäärmekettunen Feb 7

@confusomu you're welcome, I'm happy it's actually helping someone - that's why I wrote it :)

You'll find your own path and you'll get there - every transition is unique; what changes at all, in what order, how much time.. different for every single person; but it still just works out in the end :)