queenofthenerdsHow are you all feeling? Genuinely ❤️
「黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui」 | (aka: 鳳凰院 凶真 Hououin Kyouma)Right now I feel so anxious and like my heart is trembling…
My mom told me to be in the livingroom to talk to me and idk why like I just started to feel anxious just being in the livingroom. I feel anxious around my family of origin.
Idk how to calm down, I feel like I have a panic attack.
I’m sorry you’re so anxious. That’s such a scary feeling. Do you have any idea why your family triggers your anxiety? Really hoping for the best for you and happy thoughts <3
My parents have really like disgusting behaviors like… checks notes NOT WASHING THEIR HANDS AFTER USING THE BATHROOM 🤮
So I just fear I get like “contaminated”
So its germophobia…
But also its because of history,
At any moment mom could become the “tiger mom” again
so I kinda just anticipate getting yelled at…
It makes me anxious about hearing Cantonese
So I just use English as like an escape.
English is my realm, its make me feel in control, Cantonese is the language of anxiety
I now have a habit of just spamming a bunch of text messages in English, not even sure if mom understands
1) Breathe 2) Close your eyes and focus on a single point at the tip of your n’ose 3) Fine 5 things to look at and note details about them, then 4 things you can touch and note their texture, 3 things you can hear and how they sound, 2 things to smell, 1 thing to taste (the inside of your mouth and/or the skin of your hand will do in a pinch for these last two)
Hope whatever it was is over by now, but also that some of these tricks can help in the future
i just slept lol… heart still feels kinda “shaky”
Lucky for you, I am educated in the finest medicine the 18th century has to offer; Have you considered opium? It really helps, and it has no adverse effects.*
*: These quacks with their fancypants modern medical degrees claim there are plenty of adverse effects, but if they’re so good, how come the secretary of health despise them so much? Checkmate, big pharma.
opium
LOLOL No thanks, Englishman, I’m fine.
I’m ethnic Chinese… I know what y’all did, I know my history 🧐
Cant trick me again, I’ll just do heroin instead. I had a friend that did that once and I still haven’t heard any complaints from him yet.