SLSIt's a #MutualAidMonday thread! My phone is struggling to even type
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This story started on my latest #MetaDemon post... I'm elaborating
I've had an ongoing tooth infection since my mid or early 20s
A week ago I woke up with swollen gums and my abcess throbbing badly and I was unable to open or close my mouth from the inflammation
Why have I never seen a dentist? Because the last time I was insured and could afford care was never
My father abandoned me at 16 soon after the 1st time I had dental care...
It was the last time I was insured and SOMEONE could afford my care - but it was debt and care for my physical health was and ongoing point of contempt between my Mom and my father
She felt I deserved care
He felt I was too expensive to keep alive
This is a tiny piece of my trauma aroung #SelfAdvocacy
I had insurance through employment two other times 2013-2015 through the employer who left me permanently physically disabled, I made $8.50/hr Obama care made my monthly premium go from $50/month to $300 a month - I made too much for the govt version
$1360/month gross went to $1060/month gross
The other time I was insured was 2021-2023 when I was laid off for being unable to endure the stress of losing my #ESA and Mom's care being much more intensive for me
The few times I was insured - I couldn't afford housing, I couldn't afford food even when Mom was able to work
Mom has two degrees that were never acceptable to yt supremacist EEUU society - she lost decades of chances to have experience in fields she was trained in when she came here at 37yrs old
When she was laid off in 2013 she was too disabled for the physical work they would hire her to do - her industry (seamstress) was largely overseas or slave labor wages
Fuck if I could afford copays
The cowardly #facist and bloatedly privileged libs on this and other platforms LOVE to give me unsolicited advice about my life, about my health, about my needs without even 1% of information about my day to day present situation MUCH LESS my past
When I was fired after being injured in 2015 it took me a year to find work because of my disabilities and elitism and poverty
Lean into this next bit
My dad stole 90% of my mom's retirement b4 he abandoned us she worked and raised us practically alone from 1989-2013, the chunk he took supposedly to cover unpaid bills wasn't much
In Feb 2000 he abandoned us - the mortgage unpaid, lights unpaid, phone unpaid and other essential bills I can't remember unpaid - we lost my childhood home Sept 2000
Mom's last job 2000-2013 gave her 10k in retirement funds we blew through it in the year I was searching for work - Mom found nothing bc she's Brown
As a #Displaced #Indigenous #Latina family we've never had the privilege of savings, nor family nor community
My father's financial abuse left us in worse poverty than what we endured while he had control of our lives - his last words to me were full of ablist and sexist BS
Many assume that the poor just don't know how to manage financial obligations
Fuck off with that #classist #ablist SHIT
I love seeing assholes propagate things like "don't get scammed pay the govt for them"
Hours before thousands would exchange gifts and money and other resources for their "festivities" the upper half of the #WorkingClass was distributing #Charity #Eugenics and #AntiBlack advice to "protect" one another from we the *dirty* and *disgusting* marginalized poor
I don't understand how anyone can expect to change the #facism that the so called EEUU is rooted in and think that anyone has a right to say who gets to live and who gets to die
These are your *Holy*days #Mastodon
I chose to stay silent reading this BS because my partner was mourning his elder
Time keeps passing and I am still left behind - only witnessed by a few dear friends and chosen family
Indeed without them I would be dead, long dead
I stay silent in fear of my rage stinging them while it's difficult to give grace to so many who are trying - change hurts, it's scary
I do believe you few who might feel the burn are brave and I don't want to bury you in my fury
I hate everything about this
I have less than 24 hrs to cover my Past Due Hotel fees AND raise enough to get a new reservation tomorrow
That's $2895 total
This is a result of ongoing communal neglect as those who usually advocate for me are disabled, chronically ill and otherwise marginalized as $105 in late fees have been compiling weekly on top of my unmet weekly goals
This has been for a year now that my goals are never met
https://ko-fi.com/sabilewsounds/goal
Stay with me a little longer
I screamed in the #MetaDemon "your performative is showing"
I was conditioned to give care and kindness, it might be my core underneath all the trauma and abuse idk...
My spark feels very muffled and muddled
A friend told me last night "your soul is needed in this world even if it doesn't deserve it"
I weep as I fight to believe such a thing...
I'm scared
If you're on the #MetaDemon and want to help #Boost my needs here's this
https://www.instagram.com/reel/DS2p1VUkSYc
End of thread #MutualAidMonday thank you #Mastodon
Sabi on Instagram: "I've had an ongoing tooth infection since my mid or early 20s A week ago I woke up with swollen gums and my abcess throbbing badly and I was unable to open or close my mouth from the inflammation I have less than 24 hrs to cover my Past Due Hotel fees AND raise enough to get a new reservation tomorrow That's 2895 total More in comments"
12 likes, 8 comments - sabilewsounds on December 29, 2025: "I've had an ongoing tooth infection since my mid or early 20s A week ago I woke up with swollen gums and my abcess throbbing badly and I was unable to open or close my mouth from the inflammation I have less than 24 hrs to cover my Past Due Hotel fees AND raise enough to get a new reservation tomorrow That's 2895 total More in comments".