I have enormous vulnerability in my origins working helpdesk. I didn't know it was the most important thing I ever did, that made me who I am today.

But I worked that job thinking I was nothing. And that I had to lie about who I was. I created SwiftonSecurity to be someone I wasn't. I created it as a role-play. Because I had to play it to believe it. And I had to believe it to be it. Even as an artifice.

And that is how I became it. Because I was already working a security job.

I just didn't believe it yet.

The story behind SwiftOnSecurity involves a car crash, it involves a post about heartbleed, and involves discovering I had a voice people cared about even as I portrayed myself as a joke. And found out I wasn't one.