I am running into a "mental block" I could use some help with.
I feel "guilty" when I use stuff like Biofreeze or Tiger Balm in fair amount to control my pain, even though it works well and can dramatically improve my mood and function.
This seems silly. but I still find myself resistant. Like I am cheating. Quite opposite of what I would tell anyone in my position.
Do you have experience with this?
@pmjones Kinda yeah. I saw this with some other kids of silent generation parents. I think that may have a lot to do with it.
I feel like I will overdo it and somehow make it worse/become dependent on it. And, well, I kind of am dependent on it. But I don't (exercise enough||eat the right things||go to bed early enough||clean up)...
I think it was my primary parent, who has some pretty similar stuff to myself but was born into a completely different world in 1936 than I was in 1975.
@funkatron I am not a therapist, this comment is worth what you paid for it, etc.
Suffering is a complicated topic; but: if your suffering does not lead to moral/emotional/spiritual growth, there is no gain from enduring it.
You are no more "dependent" on pain relief than a construction worker is "dependent" on repair supplies.
(Cribbed from Peck's "The Road Less Travelled" which was formative for me.)
I hope you are doing better today!
@pmjones I am, and your post helped me a great deal.
I struggle with seeing myself from outside. Many do I think, but I have become much more self-aware in general, and of that in particular. I read that it is a common aspect of ADHD.
Funkatron (Ed Finkler)
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