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Reflecting on last fall when I rented a *local* hotel room for two nights just to escape my mom and have a minute to think, and how this was not a red flag to certain members of my family to whom this should have been a HUGE red flag.

I was doing a lot of short "need to escape this toxic environment" trips in the months leading up to leaving my abuser too, so its red-flagginess was not lost on me at all.

I felt like I was grabbing the lapels of people I wanted help from, going "Hello! Don't you see how bad it is!?" and basically getting a "shrug, try harder and stop overreacting."

Anyway, now she's that family-member's problem, and I'm far away with the family member who did take me seriously.

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Mx. Luna Corbden Jun 20

Probably the fact that this particular family member would find hotel and food expenses for two days to be a footnote in his budget might have had something to do with that. For me it was about 15% of my income that month.

And he was complaining every time he had to take hours off his work to help me help mom. When I was regularly losing WEEKS of work. Another reason I needed to get a hotel, so I could even think about my work.

During the move, I didn't work at all for nearly three months.

That level of lacking in empathy, or even effort to empathize, really pisses me off. I was not prone to freaking out OR asking for help, so the fact that I was freaking out and asking for help at all should have earned some being taken seriously.

Mood: Angry

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Mx. Luna Corbden

Also where do I petition Mastodon to have build-in fields for "Mood" and "Music" when posting, like LJ did?