levampyreDear fellow autistic or monotropic peers, I need your advice. I struggle with taking "me time", esp. in stressfull tides. How do you do it? How are you able to relax when you know you have unfinished business? How do you not feel guilty (?) thinking about all the chores you didn't do today? How do you drop tasks you or your loved ones depend on? And how do you give away responsibility, when it means that you also lose control over how things are done? @actuallyautistic #autism #monotropism
play in progress@levampyre @actuallyautistic I'm more terrified of having a nervous breakdown again than of failing at any of the tasks on my plate, and this is while already being basically perma-precarious - in other words food insecurity etc. are never truly out of my sight. So, no fun.
But if I don't rest, and rest *enough*, eventually my body and mind just stop functioning, and I have experienced what that is like, and it makes rest non-negotiable. Scariest experience of my life.