@scottwillsey @scrappy_capy_distro @Parasite interesting you're taking my "*life is meaningful* because it's yours to do with as you like" to be a form of nihilism. Truly has lost all meaning, that term...
Snark aside, I get it. From a bystander perspective, all suicide looks like a waste - a premature end to a great variety of paths upon which we may use our radical potential. It's why we don't advocate ritualistic death as a performance art: there are mouths to feed, fascists to fight, and solidarity to build - I'm sure you'd agree with as much.
That fact, that life does mean something, that people are capable of changing the world, is *why* we are moved by self-immolation as protest: it's a person of sound mind and coherent ethics making a conscious choice about what to do with their meaningful existence, knowing full well that suicide hurts the onlookers, heightens the tension in our hearts, and, ideally, motivates us who live to not only "raise awareness" or "read theory," but to actually fucking do something now that they're gone.
That to me doesn't describe nihilism, it doesn't suggest to the average reader that they too should douse themselves ablaze, and it certainly doesn't describe a waste - assuming any one of us has the god-given right or ability to assess the proper utility of another human being. As did you me, I grant you the license to believe in whatever you like, including guilting the dead for wasting their lives if that's really where you stake your claim, but I would argue such futility starts with the notion our lives are not ultimately our own.