I'm curious… how do fellow Autistics feel when one of your posts blows up on social media?

I often feel a weird combination of validation and dread at the same time with a bit of an instinct to hide.

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@JeremyMallin Yes, it's a mixed blessing for me, though it wasn't always like that. I think a lot of it is how the internet has changed over the years, and how much more overt harassment and abuse there is now. Back in the day, I had a programming joke blog post blow up and it made the front page of reddit and I had over 100,000 views in a day and nobody took it the wrong way or called me a piece of shit or anything. But it was roughly the same time when I responded to a tweet about a programming conference with an off-hand comment about how all the presenters were white men when the conference was billed as showcasing a diverse set of speakers, and a bunch of people got mad at me and I got insults and even a death threat from someone in Australia. That's the kind of crap I dread, inadvertently putting my foot in it and giving hordes of internet haters an excuse to descend on me and be mean and abusive just for kicks.

Mostly, I think social media was a bad idea, or a good idea turned bad by internet scale. Humans evolved to function in relatively small social groups, and our social abilities don't work well at the scale of millions. We don't have what it takes to function under the constant scrutiny of millions of strangers who will judge everything about us and may turn on us at any moment. I don't think anyone can handle that, even the big names with zillions of followers, who all end up as warped caricatures of themselves. So it's basically all the problems with regular celebrity, but almost none of the benefits that come with it.

@joshsusser That but about evolving to be comfortable in somewhat small social groups really resonates with me. I often think there is a maximum upper limit that we're capable of.
@JeremyMallin My radical idea for fixing social media is for it to be scaled down to community size, so most interaction is among people in your community (or one of them), and stuff that is popular enough gets to leak out to other communities. No platform should have billions, or even millions, of users. I can't think of even one big platform that doesn't have major, intractable problems.
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I always sort of try to imagine some meritocracy of thought online, millions of minds, it’s sad we can’t agree on a filter or some rational ranking system, use the virtual space to sort out humanity’s best thoughts. 🙄❤️
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but the tiniest of minorities think their few brains are better than all of us put together