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Mallory's Musings & Mischief Aug 21, 2024

A lot of my experience of #ADHD has been a constant, direct philosophical confrontation with what it means to "try"

When one "tries" to do something, does that necessitate a degree of discomfort? Does "trying" logically imply forcing oneself to suffer to some degree? How much? What is the "normal" amount?

Because I can get myself to do things I need to by accepting a degree of pain. I just don't know how much of that pain is normal, and how much is me torturing myself into fitting a mold.

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goldfishlaser

@malcircuit I also think about this a lot. The pain we feel is *not normal*. It's something that neurotypical people are entirely unable to relate to.
We need additional accommodations and support to thrive. But sometimes we still suffer to 1) do things we want 2) show up for people we love 3) survive encounters with unaccomodating systems. If we have a goal, or if we have accepted a responsibility, we give to it what we have, because it's all we can do. We push through our abnormal pain.