I'm really struggling with my thesis work right now - I'm not sure I've managed to work more than one day in the last week... fortnight? And what I did get done was the more hands-on stuff, but the next step is "just" to sit down and write. And it's not like I have grand goals or anything like that - I just need to do SOMETHING.

But it's as if every time I as much as think about thinking about sitting down to do said work, my mind goes "nope!" and shifts focus to something else, anything else.

I know it's typical ADHD stuff, that I struggle to find the work motivating or rewarding in any way, and that I've probably been under stress for so damn long that all this nothingness is partly a freeze response. But I still need to fucking work.

And I'm so frustrated and angry and hopeless, because this inability to "do" have defined my life for decades now. I don't know how to change it.

What if I can't change it?

#adhd #help