The more time I spend working, the more I realize what I want is a boring #job--I want to do something repetitive and predictable requiring minimal interaction with other people.

I sometimes wonder if I might have actually enjoyed factory #work on some level. I think about how, before we had machines, "computers" were people solving math equations as a job. Unfortunately, these tedious jobs are almost always automated out, and then introverted autistics like me have to develop our "people skills" to stay employed.

In the early 2000s, when machines and outsourcing were taking away jobs in the US, the argument was they were only taking away "boring" #jobs, freeing up time for people to work on their passions.

We bought that lie for a while, only to discover when work is supposed to be your passion, your employer's exploiting you is easier. Why do you want better pay? You're supposed to do this because you love it! The work is the reward in and of itself!

Now, #AI is coming for the #jobs that people are passionate about. It's coming for the #writing and #artistic jobs that were supposed to be our consolation when all the "tedious" #work went away. The predictable, repetitive jobs went away long ago, and now those of us who have struggled to survive in a society where our basic ability to live is tied to being employed will have to struggle even more, yet there's no political will to implement #UniversalBasicIncome or #JobsGuarantees or similar programs. So what, exactly, are we supposed to do?

I feel like more and more people are seeing through the lies of #capitalism and #TheProtestantWorkEthic and the notion that work in and of itself is a good thing, especially as more of us begin to realize how much our work contributes to #ClimateChange and many other crises our planet is facing. More and more of us know these things, yet the vast majority of us can't give up work because we need it to survive.

We've seen some resistance to the currently unworkable state of work: #QuietQuitting, increasing support for #unions, and the successful SAG-AFTRA and WGA #strikes. Right now, it looks like the bosses are hoping they can just automate us all away with #LLMs and maybe #covid19 will disable enough of us that we won't be able to fight back. Even if that happened, I don't think they've fully thought through the logical conclusions of a world without #workers or consumers, but if the #capitalists were forward-thinking, we wouldn't be in the #polycrisis we're in to begin with.

I saw someone, I can't remember who, say that #capitalism seemed to have reached a stage where those in power wished it could exist as an autopoetic system, perpetuating itself without the need for workers, #consumers, or resources. #VentureCapitalists may think #AI is the answer, but I don't think so. I don't think people will go quietly into the increasing precarity we're all facing.

Those in power also know we won't go quietly, which is why the #RepressiveState is ramping up so rapidly, with greater investment in #policing and #surveillance. I'm quite sure it's why there's been such a big push against wearing masks to continue to protect us from #covid19. It's why so many tech companies are enshittifying to prevent us from accessing accurate information or connecting with each other online. It's why the UK is criminalizing protests and the US has so aggressively tried to suppress the Atlanta Forest Defenders. It's why Mark Zuckerberg is planning to run away to a bunker in Hawai'i and Elon Musk is planning to run away to Mars. (Honestly, godspeed to them both! An island is actually a terrible place to try to wait out #ClimateChange because of limited resources and flooding, and colonizing Mars anytime in the near future, especially without support from Earth, is an unworkable pipe dream. Good riddance to them both!)

The connections between the macro-level #polycrisis we're facing with #ClimateChange, #capitalism, #precarity, and #covid19 and the day-to-day slog of having to smile and pretend that everything is normal and good to get through the day at the meaningless jobs we're supposed to be passionate about is becoming overwhelming. At least, it's becoming overwhelming for me, and I'm lucky because I actually have a job! I get the impression it's becoming overwhelming for a lot of other people, though.

I just don't know where we go from here. Our present circumstances are increasingly difficult to live in, but so many of us (especially me) are so very unprepared for a future where it looks like we will have to increasingly fend for ourselves. In the past, I'd end these things with calls to organize and build community! And we should do those things, but they're vague actions without much concrete substance, and I'm too burnt out to pursue them

Instead I find myself wishing for a world I never had--a world I've never lived in where I could have a boring job and a #LivingWage, a world that existed when I was in my 20s where I could still, because of luck and a lot of privilege, grab hold of some small pieces of decadence and beauty and pleasure that I never fully appreciated because back then I thought things could get better and I still had time. I see so many people still trying to cling to what little of those pieces are left, despite exacerbating #covid and #ClimateChange while doing so, and on some level, I can't blame them. I'm finding myself trying to figure out how I can cling to even a few of them too, while continuing to protect myself and others from #covid19. I want what I think I'm owed from a world that doesn't exist anymore and never existed for so many people. I'm not ready to move into the next world, which I envision as something like a Mad Max movie

I admire people who are moving into whatever the next world will bring--the people who are learning #survival skills: permaculture, water purification, foraging, and ways of being in community beyond white supremacy. I imagine in 10 years I'll regret not taking time now to learn from them. But right now, what I need, after four years of unbearably painful #loneliness in an on-going #pandemic, is embodiment, #pleasure, #sensuality, decadence. I need a future with those things, and I feel like I rarely see leftist groups making space for them--they're often treated as frivolities to lull us into complacency.

We will likely be able to eke out small #joys even in a #dystopia. It's what humans do. But I'm not content with just small joys anymore. I don't want a crumb; I want the whole damn cake. In my experience, I can either spend time fighting for a cake I will never actually get to eat, or I can try to find a cake now and maybe get a bite

Maybe telling myself that I deserve the whole damn cake is #radical. I recently had a revelation that all the #leftists I've known who constantly criticized me for "not being left enough" because I wasn't doing activism their way really didn't want to do the activism I was and were trying to cover up their own guilt. So maybe I can play that game and declare whatever I'm doing the most leftist and revolutionary thing to do!

But I don't think that shaming, blaming and one upmanship are helpful.

We do deserve the whole damn cake, though. I know I'm not the only #CovidCautious person who is this painfully lonely. (And when I say "painful," I mean it. It's to a point where it's all-consuming, intensely unbearable, and if I don't do something about it, I'm not going to survive.) We don't deserve this #loneliness. We really fucking don't, just like none of us deserve a burning planet or exploitative bosses ready to replace us with robots

We don't deserve any of this collapsing world in which all of our leaders have failed us and to live another day, we're forced to labor toward our own long-term demise. We all deserve a present in which we're cared for, in which we can have connection with each other that isn't commodified, in which we can pursue our passions without being exploited, in which we have time for enjoyment and indulgence that doesn't come at the expense of someone else's oppression. We all deserve that. And I think it's good to remind ourselves of that, because maybe if we can remember that we deserve it, then we can try to move, even slowly and with small steps, toward a world in which humanity can have all of those things in the future. I'm trying to make peace with the fact that if that future ever comes, it probably won't be during my lifetime, but that doesn't mean it isn't a future worth imagining. It's the future we all deserve. </end thread>
@TheRatCantRead Apologies for fav-spamming you, but 1000000% agree with and thankful for everything you have written in the thread. It should be printed, distributed, shouted at the world. ❤️
@meansofescape, you have nothing to apologize for! I appreciate that what I shared resonated with you ❤️