What being #AuDHD is like.
I decided to make miso-glazed eggplants for dinner. I usually make them with some sesame seeds. This time when I was almost done, I couldn’t find the sesame. I know I have at least two different packs somewhere. I found none on my seeds shelf, I wasn’t able to find any from the first try in my a bit too well-stocked pantry cabinets. So I got upset, finished making them as is, and don’t want them for dinner anymore, and am now cooking eggplants with za’atar
It’s usually said that #ADHD and #autistic traits tend to compensate for each other, and yeah, at times they do (like I may partially compensate absence of habits by routines and rituals etc), but sometimes they’re making it worse, like today, when my ADHD part misplaced the sesame and forgot where - and autistic part was so overwhelmed by inability to do things as already expected that totally rejected the resulted dish and almost cried at some point
@actuallyautistic
@olena @actuallyautistic I’m learning my ADHD really screws up my brain’s desire to pursue special interests — it rarely lets me dig as deep or for as long as I’d like, because it gets bored & starts noticing other potential contenders for special-interest status … makes me something of a non-consensual dilettante
@olena @actuallyautistic yeah, days like that are no fun. Both of mine do the same thing in occasion, so I know the feeling very well. My last one was over simple rice that I had rushed to make for fried rice, only to discover while cooking the fried rice that it was sightly more wet than it should be. My whole belief in my cooking ability crumbled to dust for the day, and I ended up tossing the rice. Meltdown days are no fun, and i am sorry to hear about your bad day
@olena @actuallyautistic oddly, I actually ended up turning that experience into a teaching experience for myself. My mom never washed rice, so the concept of doing so baffled me for a long time. To prevent a repeat of soggy rice, I spent a week making sure I could make rice perfectly