So moms been on a pretty awful tear #Today. Just attack after attack after attack, and they’re not subtle anymore. My stomach hurts and I literally just wanna sit and sob until I have no tears left. Or call her and just scream at her ab all the bullsheet she’s spewing. But instead I just don’t respond at all and I’m just sitting on the bed frozen and in shut down mode. I might journal some of my feelings and things I wanna say to her at some point. I just hate this so much. So yeah that’s how my days been, we’ll really it’s been the past like week of her just going off on me almost daily. I’m so damn exhausted y’all. #ActuallyAutistic #CPTSD #VerbalAbuse #Narcissitic #toxic