TobyFeb 2, 2023
ankteckningar
I wrote a little blog post about my self-esteem and how I'm trying to overcome both low self-esteem and crippling perfectionism by just doing whatevs. Like for example a video montage of a forest filled with mysterious ducks and a space craft. That doesn't get mentioned in the blog but I did do it and post it to Youtube. Cause it's silly and not very good and it meant a lot to me.
But enough about ducks, here's my blog post:
http://www.ankteckningar.com/psychology/self-esteem-productivity-and-how-to-change/
Self-esteem, productivity and how to change - ankteckningar

The problem is that low self-esteem + trying to guess peoples feelings is an easy equation solve. They hate everything I think about.

ankteckningar
Feb 2, 2023 at 7:08pmWeb
Show threadJohnny ChaddaFeb 2, 2023

@ankteckningar This was a great post, thanks for sharing. This really struck a note with me:

the only way to measure success is by not stopping

Show threadankteckningarFeb 3, 2023
@johnny I'm happy you found something that resonated :D
Show threadAnita LewisFeb 3, 2023
@ankteckningar I don't think we realize how much our doings affect other people and the universe in general. I love what @bodhidave said: "In tonight's #meditation there was a sense that possessing a personality is like living being having an "added value." To me it says that "you being you" have a special added value that is individual and very special. That made me so happy to hear.
Show threadankteckningarFeb 3, 2023
@ajlewis2 @bodhidave I totally agree! To often we find value in our reflections in others or our bank account or accomplishments. But me being me has value.
Show threadbodhidaveFeb 4, 2023

@ankteckningar @ajlewis2

What I'm reminded of in the spirit of these comments is a time I asked an American #Zen teacher, Mel Weitsman, in a kind of ceremonial Q&A at the end of a retreat:

"Zen master Nanquan says if we try to approach it (the Tao, the Ultimate Truth) we'll go away from it. So what are we to do?"

Mel's reply helped me:

"Don't try so 𝘩𝘢𝘳𝘥."

Show threadAlice 🌻Feb 14, 2023
@ankteckningar Great blog post! Similar to the spot I'm trying to pull myself out of right now. I'm anxious I don't have a "voice" yet but I won't discover it if never use it!
Show threadankteckningarFeb 14, 2023
@alice_digest thank you, it means a lot you took the time to read and share your thoughts 🌷 It's a really tough bind to find yourself in.