I want to cry and scream, but this is basically the only -safe- place for me to do it.
talking to my partner wont work, because she's got her own things to worry about.
talking on FetLife wont work either because of the same reasons....
everything just sucks right now, and I dont know how to fix it.
@banjofox If there is anything I can do to help you, or if you just need someone to talk to, let me know.
You got this!
thanks... I just wish I knew *why* so much of my "happy" went away...
last night's munch was just sort of the final strike that murdered the final remnant of it...
Honestly, it's been a bit of a long slide.
Starting with my online RP character losing her collar for a day (the other player didn't understand the significance, and it -really- hurt despite being "just a game".)
My IRL RP group started taking a turn i didnt like but honestly should have expected ( DnD is always mechanics heavy which i dont enjoy)
the hoodie i ordered and was HUGELY excited for turned out to be a bust (so far)
I got sick with whatever virus is going around (not covid, or any of rhe flu variants)
partner (whom also got sick) feels disconnected from me cause I (probably true) look at my phone too much. But my online RP friends, that have brought me huge swings of happy are only active at certain hours.
went to the munch despite not feeling 100%, and ended up offending the Domme I was hoping to impress.
she's still interested in being friends, but it was basically a worst case scenario for me.
all of that eroded my happy.
Vulpine Glitch
Jay 🚹🔝🔞
Tikius