The eternal "do I have adhd or is modern life just bad with too much bullshit and pointless paperwork arbitrary deadlines and endless bloody process instituted as an expression of unjust power relations" debate.
Having this debate instead of doing needed prep time for tomorrow's class, which I've been meaning to do since 11 am, but I never lose my keys, so this is probably just a character flaw.
ShutUP I am not having some sort of stereotypical self-realisation thing. Jesus, was coming out as gay and then trans not enough? I can't keep doing this over and over again.