Mikayla HI have one regret in life: staying in the closet for 18 years. My teens and twenties were a shadow of what they could have been. Give others the passive and active support and acceptance I didn't have.
It's easy to blame myself for not being strong enough, and I do. It's not fair, but there isn't any other individual I can hold responsible.
Hiding and suppressing your feelings for years strongly internalizes a lot of inhibitions. I may look like I'm doing okay, but I still can't talk about things like this unless I'm in a safe space or pretty damn drunk.
Anaïs Betts@mhutch I'm spending a lot of time unlearning things too, and unlearning the dysphoria / body hatred that I've just taken as "default" for so long
@mhutch I wasn't even the closet, I had the kind of dysphoria that doesn't tell you why, you're just miserable, and it's like a fucking Lost episode where in the end you're like "EVERYTHING MAKES SENSE NOW"
@anaisbetts ugghh I'm sorry.
@mhutch don't be! Be happy that I finally figured it the fuck out
@anaisbetts yup I'm happy for you!
@anaisbetts still struggling with feelings there myself, I'm glad didn't take longer, sad I took as long as I did