I am at an important event for 14yo, and will miss a big event for 9yo on at the same time. I'm both torn up and resigned to it. I can't be in two places at the same time. #soloDad

11yo tonight: I hate all the food you make. It sucks.
....
Me, finally getting it: I'll never cook like mum...

*hugs* 💔

#cookingWithBenny #soloDad #widowhood

First day back at school after the half-term break.
9yo has an offset/curriculum day.
14yo is "sick" and didn't go.
12yo gave herself a concussion in History class and needs to be picked up early 🤦‍♂️ #soloDad
I'm super proud of 14yo. She takes absolutely no nonsense and isn't afraid of telling people when a situation doesn't work for her. I wish that I had her confidence and assertiveness growing up. I must have done something right. #soloDad #parenting
What's cool about being a parent of a teenager is being told to fuck off on a regular basis. #soloDad
The last two years have been a mess in so many different ways. I am trying my best, but have also given myself the grace of accepting that I am a flawed human and will get things wrong. On balance I think I've done OK. #widowhood #soloDad #selfCompassion

It's the good old "is omission lying?" question.

No. Omission is omission, because I don't need to tell you everything, but I can still understand why it feels shit.

Being an adult fucking sucks, and sometimes there is no right way to do something.
#widowhood #soloDad #adulting #kobayashiMaru #noWinSituation

So, I told my kids that I've been seeing people this last year. This went as well as expected - they nailed my dick to the wall. #widowhood #soloDad #dating
I'm tired of being strong and keeping a hundred plates spinning. I'm tired of people saying what a great job I'm doing, and that they can't imagine what they'd do in my place. It would be nice to put everything down and be looked after for a bit. I guess I'm just tired. #soloDad

After days of being grouchy and mean towards me, 14yo came into my bedroom this morning, asked for a hug and started crying into my chest.

The two year anniversary is approaching, and the kids' emotions are overflowing. #widowhood #soloDad