Aaaaaah! What. Did. I. Do?
And why does it both excite me and scare me at the same time?

OK, I don't wanna jinx anything so I won't go in details yet. But I may have signed up to maybe get something that would definitely be a big change for me. And while change scares the sh*t out of me... I also felt like I had to at least take a chance...

IF this happens, I have no idea how to make it happen... I'll definitely need a sh*tload of help from many. But it could mean a change that would be something I have wanted since the divorce. But then I didn't have the time, my hex was pushing me out fast...

I added myself to the list today, just 3 hours before closing... There were over 600 applications but they had a preliminary saying I was somewhere around 26/28. Still not high enough if all before me want it. But at least I know where I stand.

A big change. Not for several months though! So it will give me time to plan and all, should I be so lucky... 😊

Fingers crossed and all that. I only told my bestie and now I'm hinting about it here. I just don't wanna jinx anything. If I know more, I'll definitely let my parents know and then I'll share it here as well... 😊 But yeah....

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