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I want a night club with lockers.

You go in, you get carded, the first thing you do is open a tab. Opening a tab assigns you a locker. Next, you're directed to a wall of lockers where you can leave your purse, your coat, and your phone.

You have to check your phone when you enter so that people actually dance and aren't afraid of being filmed.

A security guard watches the lockers like a hawk. You close your tab, your locker gets opened up, and you're done.

Also, dancing starts at 7bc I'm getting old.

Went to see Have Fun, Good Luck, Don't Die last night.

I loved it.

I hated it.

I am hoping that if the crazies in charge ARE successful in creating AGI, it is as indifferent to my existence as I will be to its existence.

Feeling very much like the protagonist of Victor Lavalle's Ballad of Black Tom; I will take the indifference of a cosmic entity that I cannot understand over the open malice of a society ruled by sociopathic oligarchs and technocrats any day of the week.

I really love cosmic horror, but I am not so sure I am a fan of living it. The closer we get as a society, collectively, to peering behind the veil--the more the idea of madness as the result of clarity and understanding resonates with me.

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Some days I wake up and it seems so obvious that the answer to everything is oxytocin.

It is absolutely insane that we have bodies built around co-regulation via cuddling and skin-to-skin contact, and then we created societies that turned that into a taboo.

It makes sense though, if you think of society as a top-down structure in which the few want to control the many; if you are a tyrant, you don't want your people to love each other, to care for one another, to feel on some level like one person's body is an extension of their own; that we are branches on one tree, and to sever us is horror.

That patriarchy focuses so heavily on isolating men, especially, from both themselves, from each other, from women--even from their children--also makes sense; because the powerful in a patriarchal system are forever endeavoring to turn men into either an engine of productivity, or a weapon they can use to bludgeon others into submission.

If people are chemically, hormonally, economically entwined with one another through physical affection and mutual aid, their capacity to either perpetrate or countenance violence is reduced.

I'm sure nothing I'm saying here is new, but, I've always secretly suspected that the solution to most of life's problems is cuddling and making out--and in this era where fascism is on the rise, that seems more true than ever.

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