So I have seen the doctor. And she seemed quite concerned about what I had to say and has given me a referral for a sleep study.
I just gotta book it at some point.
Less stressed now that the appointment is over!
Oh and I have more estrogen. Always the positive outcome LOL
I'll keep fairly open about this here at the very least. No point in keeping it a secret that ya girl can't breathe in her sleep sometimes lol
Wanting to draw TF is wild
I have an ever expanding list of things I wanna draw
And yet here I am not drawing them
Struggles of an artist
Anyway someone remind me to draw an amphimorpho tf
While I'm stuck being awake.
I just wanted to say how much I really appreciate the community.
Not just the one that seems to be congregating around me. But the broader Yinglet community, transformation community and broader still the furry community.
Because if it weren't for some very special people in it, you probably wouldn't be reading these words today.
It's morbid but it's the truth. And I'm a sappy bitch at the best of times haha.
I just think it's so utterly wonderful. That a group of people who see themselves, see comfort, understanding and freedom to be whoever they want to be. That these wonderful Creatures can all be in the same space.
I can meet new people. Interact with precious goobers from all the way across the planet at light speed.
Opening up my world and finding myself and my place on this rock made of star dust.
It's truly just the best thing ever when you think about it.
how many people have made my life all the brighter for just making an appearance in it.
I'm truly grateful to know the people I know. And be here to know them.
And that these people have encouraged me to tell the stories I so desperately wanted to growing up.
So to you, reading this right now. Whether we talk regularly. Once in a blue moon. Never spoke. Or never met.
I appreciate you. For being here. And making the world a brighter place just by being in it.
Thank you
Idle thoughts while I struggle to sleep.
I'll be addressing it soon but I've ended up coming to the conclusion something about my life isn't normal.
And it's to do with exactly that: sleep.
I've always had troubles. And as I've gotten older (I'm still baffled I made it to 28), it's only gotten worse as time goes on.
Like. Of course my sleeping habits as a teenager didn't help sure, but "i've always slept like ass anyway." Was the kinda vibe I had at the time. Like I was tired anyway so it didn't phase me.
It's not like sleep made me feel any better.
Apparently that's not normal???? People feel rested?????
Where's that update for me?!
Anyway I'll be seeing a doctor about it. Because apparently it's very not normal for my blood oxygen to dip below 80 while I sleep (according to my smart watch(and my partner who has confirmed sometimes I stop breathing))
So uh. Turns out there's reasons for stuff or something hahah.
I'll probably post something here about it when I know for certain what's going on.
Just feels wild to be actually doing anything at all.
But there's a lot of reasons for that, which I won't get into here.
Currently both excited and dreading my birthday tomorrow because I just feel bad when people go out of their way to do things for me and caught up with those feelings like I somehow don't deserve a single nice thing like ever
@~@
There are nice things planned and I know some people wanna do nice things for me but its a muddled mix of emotions
LenoraTheYinglet