AffieniaApr 27
Was a brave toaster this morning and went to the leisure centre to pick up my membership card and go lane swimming.
Had a massive dizzy spell waiting for entry to the baths as I was working myself up with anxiety. Got a handle on it though.
Swam a kilometre.
Friend and I have booked in for 2 fitness classes in the up coming weeks.
Gonna go swimming at least twice more this week.
I will stop isolating and being miserable, I will!
#ActuallyAutustic
AffieniaApr 25

Starting the laborious process of joining the local council gym. Their process isn’t laborious, seems pretty straightforward. No, the hard work is in my brain.

Where do I go?
How to book intro and can it be joint with my friend?
What times are going to work and how will I change my routines to fit this?
Can I remember how lane swimming works?
If I go to classes will they be newbie friendly?
What if, what if, what if?

But I want muscles so I have to do this! I can do this!

#ActuallyAutustic

Arthur Mar 14

The more I try to find my soulmate, the more I get hurt. People are the worst creatures that exist, and Earth is a disgusting place where I really don't want to live anymore.

#ActuallyAutustic #Depression

Show threadDoggleFeb 13

@cybervegan

I once thought I didn't feel, couldn't empathise etc, and was cold, selfish and so on because I'd been told that.

Long before recognising I was #ActuallyAutustic I began to see that actually I was very sensitive, and consequently had found ways to suppress or ignore feelings - going back so far I've no recollection of it. It was instinctive and a matter of survival when I was tiny.

It's taken time but gradually I've been getting back in touch with my emotions.

@autistics

AffieniaOct 13, 2025
Created 2 playlists on soundcloud. 1 with 12 versions of Experience by Ludovico Einaudi and the other with 17 versions of ambitions of Gideon by Sufjan Stevens. Listening to them whilst sorting my nem nems by colour then quantity so I can eat them 2 by 2.
But sure mum, nothing unusual about me at all.
(Still bitter over how my mum filled in the developmental questionnaire, I’ll get over it eventually 😄)
#ActuallyAutustic
AffieniaOct 7, 2025

I survived a day in the office. And I managed this by having plenty of notice, clear instructions on what I was doing, my headphones and music, and a super understanding and wonderful facilities manager.

#ActuallyAutustic

AffieniaSep 24, 2025

Looks like our outside drain is blocked. Pray for me that I can figure out unblocking it without having to call a plumber. I really cannot afford a plumber right now.

Oh, and also pray I make it through the day as I can’t do anything about this until I finish work but it’s gonna be preying on my mind for the next 7 hours!

#ActuallyAutustic

Show threadAffieniaSep 21, 2025

I need a plan folks, trying to work with people who do not is so freaking hard some days. And then I feel super guilty for being annoyed by it.

#ActuallyAutustic

AffieniaSep 21, 2025

Struggling a bit this morning.

My allotment buddy clearly had a slow start to the day so did not get back to me for ages, and then to tell me we’re pushing it back by half an hour. Hubby is asleep. So I’ve not been able to get on with hardly anything. I’ve now put a pie shell in the oven, only to have to get tell me she’s on her way, so will not be the 30 mins late she said.

Aaaarrrggghhh!

#ActuallyAutustic

AffieniaSep 16, 2025
Saw someone walking towards me on the path today who had a lanyard round their neck. It was bouncing as they walked, full on shoulder to shoulder. It filled me with horror. I have to tuck the bits of cord from the hood of my hoodie into the neckline as them swaying irritated the piss out of me. Just watching this lanyard was angering me 😄
#ActuallyAutustic