Arthur 
The more I try to find my soulmate, the more I get hurt. People are the worst creatures that exist, and Earth is a disgusting place where I really don't want to live anymore.
DoggleI once thought I didn't feel, couldn't empathise etc, and was cold, selfish and so on because I'd been told that.
Long before recognising I was #ActuallyAutustic I began to see that actually I was very sensitive, and consequently had found ways to suppress or ignore feelings - going back so far I've no recollection of it. It was instinctive and a matter of survival when I was tiny.
It's taken time but gradually I've been getting back in touch with my emotions.
AffieniaCreated 2 playlists on soundcloud. 1 with 12 versions of Experience by Ludovico Einaudi and the other with 17 versions of ambitions of Gideon by Sufjan Stevens. Listening to them whilst sorting my nem nems by colour then quantity so I can eat them 2 by 2.
But sure mum, nothing unusual about me at all.
(Still bitter over how my mum filled in the developmental questionnaire, I’ll get over it eventually 😄)
#ActuallyAutustic
But sure mum, nothing unusual about me at all.
(Still bitter over how my mum filled in the developmental questionnaire, I’ll get over it eventually 😄)
#ActuallyAutustic
I survived a day in the office. And I managed this by having plenty of notice, clear instructions on what I was doing, my headphones and music, and a super understanding and wonderful facilities manager.
Looks like our outside drain is blocked. Pray for me that I can figure out unblocking it without having to call a plumber. I really cannot afford a plumber right now.
Oh, and also pray I make it through the day as I can’t do anything about this until I finish work but it’s gonna be preying on my mind for the next 7 hours!
I need a plan folks, trying to work with people who do not is so freaking hard some days. And then I feel super guilty for being annoyed by it.
Struggling a bit this morning.
My allotment buddy clearly had a slow start to the day so did not get back to me for ages, and then to tell me we’re pushing it back by half an hour. Hubby is asleep. So I’ve not been able to get on with hardly anything. I’ve now put a pie shell in the oven, only to have to get tell me she’s on her way, so will not be the 30 mins late she said.
Aaaarrrggghhh!
Saw someone walking towards me on the path today who had a lanyard round their neck. It was bouncing as they walked, full on shoulder to shoulder. It filled me with horror. I have to tuck the bits of cord from the hood of my hoodie into the neckline as them swaying irritated the piss out of me. Just watching this lanyard was angering me 😄
#ActuallyAutustic
#ActuallyAutustic
Currently sat on a wall waiting to go for an eye test. Chronically early as always.
Gotta be brave and firm, I don’t want new frames from them. Either they can replace them lenses in my current pairs or I’m going elsewhere. I find doing that so painfully awkward.
Like, I know I can totally just be here for the test, that’s a service you offer, but the expectation is I will buy frames from you. Anyone else get this?
#ActuallyAutustic
Gotta be brave and firm, I don’t want new frames from them. Either they can replace them lenses in my current pairs or I’m going elsewhere. I find doing that so painfully awkward.
Like, I know I can totally just be here for the test, that’s a service you offer, but the expectation is I will buy frames from you. Anyone else get this?
#ActuallyAutustic
The horrifying realisation that you did not plug your headphones in properly so the battery has died and now you need to carry on with your chores with no music.