hangin out with peeps I used to get fucked up with is awkward af now - they're like, "no weed, no mushrooms, no blow?!", I'm all, "stone cold yo"
actin like I have a disease, or found Jesus or some shit
whatever man, I just bailed
seein one another for who we are
RE: https://infosec.exchange/@coleens_/116313385455379344
honestly, giving up drugs and alcohol is one of the best things I've ever done - while not perfect, my life, and my outlook improve every day
my head is clear, I don't need Lithium, and I feel like I am back on track towards helping make the world a better palce
part of being a recovering alcoholic/addict is apologizing to people who will refuse to ever forgive you - do it anyway
I often use the phrase, "old Coleen would have..." a bit cliche, but it adequately describes how I would have handled a situation
"old Coleen" is analogous to "pre-sober Coleen", and the fact that I can now clearly see how far I have come is very satisfying
when I pass Liquor Stores or Liquor Isles, my mind immediately thinks of wine, Cabernet specifically, then turns to scotch, then I remember that, although these things have been the source of much joy, they have also been the source of much suffering and despair
was in a public restroom and the experience reminded me of how I would go in to snort cocain or do a one hit of weed - the echos, the timing of flushing the toilet in order to cover the sounds, looking for an exhaust fan - these things will haunt me for life
ya know, I smoked weed heavily from 1988 through about this time last year - I'm now at the point where getting high seems very unpleasant - even the smell has become quite off-putting to me
14 yo Coleen, hell 45 yo Coleen, would never have believe this
part of my journey to sobriety has been realizing that not every battle is mine to fight, and sometimes it's best to just keep my fuckin mouth shut!
ya know, I've done a lot of stupid shit in my life, but now that I am sober, I find this is much rarely the case
since middle school in the 80s, this is the longest I have gone without being fucked up all the time
well y'all, today marks 2 years sober for me from alcohol, but my journey to sobriety is as complicated as I am
here's a rundown
13 years free of opioids
2 years free of alcohol
1 year free of cocaine
9 months free of weed
I also count nicotine - 3.5 years
coleen