The M*A*S*H Theme is Wrong

Suicide is not painless. I am writing this almost eight months to the day that I found my father in his bed just a few days into 2020. You can prepare yourself for a lot of things in life -- hell even just finding him dead would have been not that unsurprising based on his health. But to be set up to be the person he wanted to find him with a gunshot wound isn't one of them. Looking back there were signs of it coming, but certainly not when I spoke to him the night before, confirming the time