#日记 #diary I'm a person with mushy slimey thoughts in my head. For example, which is also important and stimulant right now, I think my non native English will stain the Internet word pool and in some degree polute the LLM to say proper English regularly and even in task. I try to take part of it. Is it because I am what ethnic I am? Yes, in some degree or mainly. I cannot figure out but I'm sure other parts of my personality work here. I am the kind of person in Grade one in primary school 天这个Ryu29不会是司司墨吧勒路牢有日本人啥子平术听弗懂深邃野心浮动的家伙不要介入我的因果哇 actually really want to play the tire-rolling little 运动会 competition but give up my 资格 when 人数 should be one less, raising my hand maybe and arm with a hero like 牺牲贡献精神. Well it's a bit M inside. Sadly give away the opportunity and feel big and 超脱. I am imaging a foreigner speak Chinese in the short video it posts. No I just try to use it/they as the only 3rd pron. 'cause my dialect does so. I do have received comments that I dont have many pride of my culture. However I believe its the right chose for me that my id or ego I don't really know what made. I formed such idealogy or even bigger personality I positively assume the problem is not in me but my mind is good and the problem's in outside. I went to a 21$ per year junior school and the school is both systematically and un-...-ly westernized. Teacher play Don't Lie to Me episodes and Criminal Psychology episodes on 思辨 class. Middle class teachers and parents, sending kids to university and high school. When I ride my bike with my light on with its flashing mode on, only black face not local three wheel scooter um scooter alright scooter driver and security middle age man will say subtlly harsh word to my light. Dad say they were trynna help me, but I study engineering and the flashing light does trouble my sight in normal day. However today I parked my bike hurriedly and left the light on and 1h later to find out and I feel bad and also thought in this case no one would touch the light but with me, the two men trynna let me turn it off. In rainy day lights flashing is a must because the raindrop on my eye glasses reflecting the traffic light and traffic's light is not a another scooter but a getting bigger light source is one.