An idea which might actually be useful in this particular neck of the woods: a group for finding accountability buddies, body doubling partners, periodic check-in companions, etc who want to communicate via XMPP and/or Delta Chat (edit: and/or Signal, why not).

This could exist both on microblog fedi and threaded fedi (threadi).

The problem: I can't reliably moderate such a group every day or I'd have already started it myself. I overload and disappear for several days too frequently to be the prime mover for a community like that.

So, I will set the idea free in case anyone thinks like they might be better able to enact it.

@actuallyadhd @autistics

#BodyDoubling #AccountabilityBuddies #CheckIns #MutualSupport #Encouragement

#adhd

someone kill me. i have less than a month to finish this dissertation and i feel like giving up. all i’ve done for the past 2 months is constantly disappoint the people trying to help and guide me through this project

i can’t stop being a perfectionist, and idk how to stop, and that means that when i finally get into a place where i can concentrate and focus, a task that would take someone an hour takes me 5 hours.

time blindness is also a problem because i guarantee that 1 month deadline will mean nothing to my brain. absolutely nothing. i thought maybe weekly meetings with my supervisor would help me internalise deadlines, but that didn’t work either.

even when i get to the library where i know i’m at my most productive, i keep finding small isolated spaces to sit in where i end up procrastinating anyway, instead of taking advantage of all of these people studying to try body doubling

i’m just so lost and done with myself

#thesis #accountabilitybuddies

#accountabilitybuddies

well the last week has been kinda bad. i think i’m now resorting to getting other people to force me to go to the library because that is the ONLY way i will get any work done… :(

tasks today:

• i got a placement (yay!) so i need some info from the guy i talked to so i can send it to my uni
• i got my scopus search figured out, i just need to apply all of my eligibility criteria to the papers
• then i need to make a matrix and use some of the AI tools i was told about last week to make my life easier
• then i can start figuring out what the themes of my literature review are, but let’s not get too ahead of myself

i still kinda feel sad, i’m really behind and i feel like im disappointing my supervisor and my industry contact but it’s a struggle and idk what else to say

i do find that the process of getting ready and going to the library is kinda like a ritual for me, it gets me in a state of mind that makes it so much easier to actually start doing work. if i had a ritual like that at home i’m sure i would be more productive there but i haven’t figured out what that could look like yet

#thesis #adhd #todo

I have resorted to drastic measures!

I'm still struggling with figuring out how to make myself work when I need to, and to not be derailed by daydreaming or physical discomfort or "ooh, I'll just grab a bite to eat" that then turns into hours of mindless entertainment that I can't seem to disengage from. And oh boy, am I stressing about deadlines, because F____!

Anyway, one thing that has actually helped is physically removing the option of relaxation. Hence why my computer chair is now on my bed - the two most comfiest options eliminated in one move.
It sucks when I really want to relax, because that mean heaving furniture around, but it does help me avoid getting stuck in "oh, I'll just sit here and think for a moment" purgatory.

Deliberately avoiding social media, youtube and anything else "fun" is also necessary unfortunately - and honestly isn't something I can always do, but it does mean that I've F I N A L L Y completed the section about film grain!

Now I just have five other sections to write and eight others to adapt, before I can move on to the next part which is actually the main part of the thesis. All of which I ought to be done with by thursday... right.

#adhd #accountabilitybuddies #thesis

Gwah! Why is this so darn difficult?!

I did manage to buy groceries and make a bunch of kyfrik yesterday, so now I have easy food for a day or two, but nothing else got done on my thesis. Honestly, I'm feeling really lost - I know that a big part of it is because the next step is complicated and difficult, so I struggle to build enough momentum to even start on it, but... I still need to find a way to actually do it.

I think I'm gonna give FocusMate a try today, even though I initially dismissed it. After all, a bit of discomfort is worth it if it actually works.

So, today I've already:
✅ Eaten a quick breakfast and taken a walk
✅ Showered (yay, presentability, or something)

Next, I want to:
✅ Eat an early light lunch
✅ While I get familiar with FocusMate (research)
✅ Meditate with the Calm app (first time, it was really nice)
🟩 And when I'm ready, schedule a session relatively soon thereafter... (yeah, it's now been, what, twelve hours since I made this plan? I'm doing great *desparing sarcasm*)

Thesis work:
A session can be 25, 50 or 75 minutes apparently, so I think I'm gonna try to include time estimations (a little bit like the advanced pomodoro technique).

🟩 Read what's already written and make a plan for how to tackle the tricksy film grain segment (25 minutes)
🟩 Write as much as possible in a full session (50 minutes) and then move the f' on!

#adhd #accountabilitybuddies #thesis #todo