@aoighost i think you need to deal with the trauma head on. i have worked with so many completely useless people in like 20 years of it/infosec/cyber. these people pull 6 figure salaries and dont even know how to look at open ports in linux. its not even an intelligence thing, its a work ethic thing. you can destroy in infosec with discipline, but without dealing with your bullshit first, its just going to get in the way in ways you cant really see without some help. get some help and move past it, then go forth and wreck some shit. much love to ya, you can do this