ash spiders

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you have found: a weird dissociative autistic little girl and her troupe of imaginary friends and talking stuffed animals! add her to your inventory?

audhd, ace, postcringe freak, plural/dpdr-adjacent, trans, otherkin, agere, public universal middle sister, friend of bluey, around seattle (am pastəd). autistically longwinded

if you follow us, expect:
~ middleposting, littleposting, siblingposting, cglposting, dollposting, petposting
~ stuffed aminals (esp my bunnie stuffie bluebell)
~ my current spins/fixations (medieval stuff, old english/middle english, folk art/music/tales, storytelling and poetry)
~ kink (am mostly ace so stuff won't be that spicy. but i like hypno/mind control, and cgl/siblingplay. also i'm probably not gonna cw casual mentions of kink. this profile is already you're warning i am just Weird in a way that resents being slotted into categories of "kink" or "sexual" or being asked to taxonomize or hide myself)
~ drawing
~ drugs
~ occaisonal writing (read my sci fi cgl short story weavers or my essay about age regression, hypno, and spirituality!)

i'm new here (or actually, returning. i used to be on fedi alot since 2017 but stopped using it when cybre.space shut down), and i'm looking for fellow weirdos and freaks to be friends with, so if you're a freak plzzzzzzzzz follow me and let's be friends!!. also although we feel childlike, our body has seen many more than 21 winters, if you care about our literal age
avi - banner.

pronounsfae, it, they, she, þey/þem
website (in beta)https://elfwine.neocities.org/
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Show threadash spidersFeb 26

like we should all be able to agree that factory farming and animal testing and the indescribably horrific violence to our earth that is mining, and damming rivers, and clearing old growth forests, and extracting absolutely everything, is bad and evil. but as soon as the Other isn't as real as you and you can safely remove consideration of them as an ethical "person" whose fate is bound with yours, it frees you up to do whatever icarian things you want with no* consequences

we think cognitive anthropocentrism is very related to colonial ideology, and also ableism/sanism, and other kinds of oppression. this all encompassing belief that the Other is not worth considering, that their voice is not worth hearing, that they are lesser than you, that because they think differently than you, they can be safely dismissed, or turned into a commodity, or something to exploit

Show threadash spidersFeb 26
i know i get worked up about it but it's just depressing how seemingly 99% of cultures agree conciousness goes beyond humans, goes beyond animals, can be found in all sorts of non-human places, but the 1% that said "no, it does't :)" happened to take over the world, and weaponized anthropocentrism to destroy and exploit everything and everyone and drive us all into collapse on the basis of "the Other isn't real in the way i'm real"
Show threadash spidersFeb 26
and also the "combination problem" of panpsychism is a complete non-issue born of individualist brainrot. i bet most plural systems, especially median plurals, have no real trouble understanding the resolution of the "combination problem". and if you are a creature awake to the entangled nature of reality and don't see yourself as fully separable from the 'other', it's even easier, and the more you think about it the more fascinating and deep the way conciousness combines goes. but of COURSE scientists, who push anyone out of their field who's too "crazy" or "lacks objectivity" (again, in a field about studying subjectivity and emotions??) can't comprehend what anyone who'se made it thru Plurality Kindergarten understands.
Show threadash spidersFeb 26
until anthropocentric scientists learn they are not the epistemological center of the universe, they will keep moving the goal posts in new and bizarre ways
Show threadash spidersFeb 26

like i get not everyone is spicy enough like me to be an animist but panpsychism, for ppl who have confined themselves to a "scientific rational worldview" (whatever) , is just so elegant and obviously true. what is more likely, that conciousness is this bizarre super rare thing that you need neurons, and only neurons in the right way to experience, and nobody can ever figure out what it is or even adequately define it, or that conciousness is just what it is to be, and the shape of being determines how the conciousness feels "on the inside"?

what is more likely, that every body in the universe moves in bizarre extremely convoluted twisty orbits around a geocentric earth? or that everything moves in elegant elipsoids and parabolas and hyperbolas?

Show threadash spidersFeb 26
"i won't consider such a theory, it's too subjective and unscientific" says some cognitive scientists, that is to say, guys who literally STUDY SUBJECTIVITY??
ash spidersFeb 26
one day in the future panpsychism will be seen as so obviously correct among the scientific that everyone will look back at this time like its the dark ages of the study of conciousness
Show threadash spidersFeb 25

permacomputing takes this a step further, and its worth thinking about and taking seriously. but i'm not hoping everyone's gonna switch to DuskOS and writing in forth or programming in uxntal (that would be based tho). i just wish that the idea of "progress" was shifted more towards making stuff that doesn't rely on an anomalous abundance of memory and cpu and gpu power.

obviously not every task is suited for low powered hardware. some tasks have very good reason to be using a lot of memory/cpu/gpu. but outside of those niches, i feel like most stuff, esp the internet, chat programs, etc, should at least run on like, 20-year old hardware.

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ash spidersFeb 25
my armchair opinion about computers for the season is that i wanna see a "software degrowth" movement. seems like software, games, even programming languages (i've heard), are made like overpowered computers are normal, good, and gonna be around forever (and always improving), and anyone on slow old hardware needs to e-waste it and buy a new machine. it's giving "speeding your SUV down the freeway for 10 minutes to buy a bag of factory-farmed milk from the grocery store".
ash spidersJan 13

it feels like so many vinyl stickers nowadays are huge (like 4-inches wide) and holofoil, and i really wish it weren't so. holofoil, when used with care, can make stickers look amazing. but so often i find a sticker i think would be prettier if it weren't printed on holofoil. the metalic rainbow sheen can take away from the colors and be distracting. and the size issue... ur putting a sticker on the back of a street sign that's one thing, go big!! but when it's a cute sticker meant to go on a notebook or lappy, if it's absolutely huge, it just takes up alllll the space and makes it so there's not enough room to have lots of stickers on my notebook cover.

i believe we've reached peak holofoil giant sticker; we're in the Sticker Loudness Wars, and i wish for people to relearn the joy and cuteness of a small sticker with flat simple colors, or even of a sticker sheet!!