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big queer chronologically ill reclusive critic and general disaster. eating the rich is self defence
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alright, finally doing the fucking account migration bollocks again because I'm tired of whatever weird nerd bullshit is causing me to, I'm pretty sure, be unable to see stuff even from mutuals I've been talking to for years

god how is this the least shit place and it's still like this

It just clicked in my brain. What I haven't been able to articulate about why I'm so anxious about #Windows Recall. I'm sure others have already gotten to where I am.

It's worse than "a system that tracks everything you do" and stores that info in a basic database that could be easily compromised.
It's worse than a nanny surveillance tool for companies to spy on their employees.

It's inescapable.

It doesn't matter if I make a dozen "how to disable recall" tutorials. The second YOUR data shows up on someone ELSE'S screen, it's in THEIR recall database.

It won't matter if you're a master #security expert specialist. You can't account for EVERY other computer you've ever interacted with. If a family member looks up an old email with your personal data in it, your data is now at risk.

If THEIR system is compromised YOUR data is at risk.

I just went from "vague feeling of unease" to "actively writing templates to canvas elected officials, regulators, and attorneys general."

she was kinda funny lookin'
everything's so fucking expensive I hate this bullshit global scam 'economy'

A friend just pointed out:

"ADHD creates impulse control issues and, consequently, advertising takes advantage of a disability.  Ergo, ad blockers are assistive devices and interfering with their operation for commercial gain constitutes a willful violation of the ADA."

Let’s do this.

There was a small plane crash about 10-12 years ago and a guy survived but if he hadn't, it is entirely possible that britain would be a significantly less shit place
somewhat related: I want to say "I miss hosting", but it would be more accurate to say "I had some friends over for dinner once in 2011 and it's the only time I've ever been able to do that and people actually came, and it was probably the happiest weekend of my life". So yeah that's pretty tragic
I think a lot of this stuff will ease somewhat once I've got Life Shit and especially money & rent shit stabilised. I've always known I have a lot of shit to deal with, but poverty really makes so much of that impossible on top of inscribing every other problem deeper into you

I do feel like I still haven't regained my cooking confidence. Even when I do proper cooking now I seem to be screwing up a lot, doubting myself, stopping with additions because I worry I've overdone it with the spices or the garlic etc.

I think that's probably a manifestation of my wider anxieties and doubts about basically all my few remaining relationships at this point, but it's a particularly frustrating one because I'm a good cook, i've been doing it since I was so young I don't even remember (I want to say 9 but iono)., my whole family are good and versatile cooks.

Sure I haven't expanded my repertoire for far too long, mostly because of money and health stuff limiting my options/energy/confidence. So I'm not as good as I would be otherwise. But it's extra frustrating to get worse. I enjoy cooking, and it also actually affects other people.

Feeding people is a big thing in my family, it's an emotional interaction. It's hard not to feel upset when a dish I know I can make turns out disappointing. And it feeds into the sense that people really don't know who I am, and think I don't know what I'm doing.

to be honest, most food I cook doesn't look all that good. I've never cared about that nonsense, it's all in the tasting.

Obviously if you're running a restaurant then yeah impressions count etc, and things looking nice is part of the experience people are paying for. But I'm like... bitch I cook for people, not for a picture frame