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@funkatron I am not a therapist, this comment is worth what you paid for it, etc.
Suffering is a complicated topic; but: if your suffering does not lead to moral/emotional/spiritual growth, there is no gain from enduring it.
You are no more "dependent" on pain relief than a construction worker is "dependent" on repair supplies.
(Cribbed from Peck's "The Road Less Travelled" which was formative for me.)
I hope you are doing better today!