@pangolinWoodworks

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And if you enjoyed this post, and don't currently subscribe to my ko-fi: Please, please consider doing so.

Folk assume because I can put together long sentences and have a website and such, that like, maybe I'm a corporate goon or college professor or something.

I'm not; I am a disabled queer native punk with no paperwork; I couldn't get a job even if I thought they were the best thing ever. Hell, I can't even get food stamps or healthcare like most poor folk can, because of state repression.

And let's not forget, please, that ICE still roams the streets, and so I don't: I literally just... don't leave the house, because the situation we are in *is already that bad and has been for many months*.

I write these posts and bother to put together well-formed research because I think these ideas matter, and I'm not going to let a little thing like systemic bigotry and ostracization distract me from doing everything I can to get them out there.

But, I must admit, it would be easier to do this sort of work if I weren't so stressed about like, losing the housing that keeps me safe from the cops.

Selfishly, it's hard watching a whole new generation turn those conditions into media promising hope and change so that they can develop their careers as activists or whatever, when I continue to just, do this shit, off my $80 a month or so from ko-fi, for like, I mean it was 15 years ago I got no-flied.

I'm in anarchist groupchats with published radicals you know by reputation and from seeing their books in stores, and they leave me on read when I share my ideas.

Iunno.

The ideas I"m sharing seem to matter, most folk who slow down to read them say so.

What can we do to make it so I am not so precarious as I continue to produce them?

Cause this shit sucks.

edit: lol forgot payment link:

https://ko-fi.com/emsenn

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Alternatively if anyone wants to like, hire me as a consulant for whatever? I am down for that shit! I'm not against selling out like the rest of y'all, I just wasn't raised into it via schooling like you, I need an in! :P

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"You don't even know how -- works."
"That's right, I *don't* know how -- works. Will you explain it to me?"

When I discovered that this kind of person who I was so scared of finding out what I didn't know so often could NOT explain the topic themselves. Oooh. All of those worries vanished.

And if they can explain it? Well, now I know too. I win... or I win.

Wish I could have learned this at a younger age.

There's this video series on some social media that's just, like, clips of the folk (okay, it's always bros), clips of the bros who run AI companies, saying just, absolutely ridiculous things.

It makes it clear why folk would think LLM output is meaningful and reasonable, because these bros are considered reasonable (because they have money), and they say shit like

"We should make meat out of oil, because you can make anything out of oil. Gels! You can make gels. If you wanted to make something from scratch you wouldn't start with a plant, you'd start with oil! You wouldn't make a gear out of plants! you wouldn't make rubber out of plants!"

...We wouldn't make rubber out of plants?

*That's where rubber comes from*

And I was actively, as I heard this nonsense, 3d printing a gear made from corn starch.

Like each *word* in the sentence this bro said, made sense.

But only if you ignored 99% of what the words could mean, in favor of the 1% they HAVE to mean, grammatically, based on sentence position, and ALSO ignored that if you tested the truthiness of those sentences, they'd still end up failing!

And that is *stunningly* close to how AI itself decides what word to say next, and *is also literally how Americans and most Anglophones are taught to assemble sentences in school*

And so while it is OBVIOUS when someone is talking from a position of absolute disconnect with reality, it's logical to assume the same flaws in reasoning and speech are still there for everyone raised up the same way, and it's just less obvious when a person isn't a billionaire.

(Which I am refraining from making this a longer post that talks about how there are forms of communal leadership that basically exist to serve as drag performances of the social values around them, so that people can interrogate how they feel about those values.)

I just can't wait for the day when folk realize that if they think so similar to an AI, and they hate how AI think, maybe they should try thinking in totally different ways.

been polishing off writing from the past year, here's one that's part of a project on why no one can think

https://emsenn.net/library/domains/humanities/domains/sociology/domains/cybernetic-postliberalism/texts/the-threat-that-does-not-pass/

i'll just drop the conclusion

> The body does not distinguish between a predator and a labor market. What it distinguishes is whether the threat has passed. Structural threats, by definition, have not. The clinical question — how do we treat this person’s chronic pain, anxiety, autonomic dysregulation — and the structural question — how do we change the conditions producing the threat — are the same question, asked at different levels of the same pathway.

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stop being ableist fuckwits just because society affords you a watering hole

The Threat That Does Not Pass: Structural Crisis and the Physiology of Chronic Activation - emsenn.net

Wake up, prices are rising, wages are stagnant. The bridge downtown is rusting away. There used to be a trolly line and a bus line but now it is gone. The schools are shabby, the park is choked with weeds, the swings are broken. But, we live in such a wealthy country, right? Where *is* all that wealth?

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RE: https://nileane.fr/@nileane/116291641538524981

The Verge is doubling down and it's a good one to read and share 👌
https://www.theverge.com/report/901818/hbo-harry-potter-jk-rowling-transphobia

Especially to your cis folks who are still somehow arguing that it's possible to watch something that’s directly funding a worldwide fascist crusade against trans people without being a part of the problem.

“Researchers measured autistic people against neurotypical expectations and called every difference a deficit. They tested empathy by measuring in-group preference and missed commitment to universal fairness. They measured creativity by counting the number of ideas and missed originality. They saw moral consistency and called it rigidity. They saw deep engagement and called it rigidity. They saw sensory richness and called it disorder.”
https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/positively-different/202601/what-the-world-got-wrong-about-autistic-people
What the World Got Wrong About Autistic People

For decades, autism research compared autistic people to animals, denied them moral sensitivity, and assumed autistic traits made them miserable. All wrong.

Psychology Today
I have never been so glad to hand a job off in my life. That being said, look at this! I will definitely be trying my hand at this in the future, but on my own time for sure!
#WoodWorking
HODL... but it's my box of cables that date back to 1989
I'm serious try selling some good software. Price it like your time has value. People will scoff and tut, but there are people out there who are desperate. Sell 800 copies not ten thousand.