Only when it's crowded and loud, I find a fleeting sense of place.
You're the reason my nights are restless, my mind won't let me sleep,
And every friend around me wonders what secrets I silently keep.
Rolling through the night, no control, no end in sight,
Pouring all my strength into the void of fading light.
In moments like these, you become a shadow in my chest,
A memory too vivid to forget, too haunting to let rest.
I write, "I miss you," but the words stay unsent,
I wonder where you are, and what your silence meant.
It’s 3 a.m., I call every name my phone can hold,
Their voices feel distant, the night is bitter and cold.
Is anyone still awake? I’m alone, it’s 3 a.m.,
Fighting the urge to dial the one name I can't condemn.
I step into the crowd, I crave air in my lungs,
Searching for the dazzling, the rapid, the songs.
I laugh too loud, speak too much, the center of the round,
But it's fear, not joy, that keeps my voice unbound.
I write, "I miss you," but the words stay unsent,
I wonder where you are, and what your silence meant.
