Talking about it in abstract is something I can do, though, and that helps some. Being earnest and real less so. I talk about depression well (and often!), But I don't ask for help well at all :P I either don't want to be a downer or don't kord what to say other than I'm down c.c

I have a REAL hard time talking about this in a conversation, and a much easier time shouting over social media. It's led to fights with those I'm close to, even, and a lot of me hiding stuff from loved ones. I wish like hell it was easier, cause I always feel like it's driving a wedge between me and my loved ones when I probably need them most.

Legit, next thing to try, on the strong recommendation of my doctor, is shrooms. My last experience was whatever, but I proceeded to be mostly clear of symptoms for like two years. Two years! Two years of blessed silence would be amazing.