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Hi, I'm Lindar K. Greenwood.
I make music.
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I have an appointment for an outpatient psych intake this Saturday. Hopefully this is the start of me getting better.

https://twitter.com/propagable_sfw/status/1251395059162820608?s=19

Very worth a read. Thread about RSD which perfectly describes my experiences.

Miss Madeleine on Twitter

“One of the responses to experiencing rejection sensitivity can be to become the initiator - the person who messages, proposes, suggests. In theory this makes all rejection explicit. If someone doesn't like you, they won't respond well to your suggestions, but at least you *know*”

Twitter

You ever realize that you're not a person? That you don't actually have an identity and everything you are is a way to force people to be close to you because you can't fucking stand being alone? That there's nothing real or authentic about who you are?

Yeah, me neither.

Introvert way to care.
I figured out what I'm so fucking depressed about and it's nothing I can do anything about, so I just kinda have to deal with it and find something more constructive to do with my time than think about [ depressing thing ] and killing myself to make the feels stop.

Am I beautiful?
Sexy? Cute? Handsome?

Do I have value?
Am I worthy of attention?

Should I lose weight?
Gain weight?

Am I too masculine?
Am I enough of a girl?

Is this how you be butch?
Does anyone even want a butch trans girl?

It's a nice day to stay in and not give a fuck.
** Tomorrow is April first, and many places have traditions of invented news stories designed to trick people.
If you're thinking of posting one, please consider that people are worried and anxious, and ask yourself if you really need to do an April Fools this year. **
Just finished my workout for the day and instead of feeling good I'm just kinda depressed. What the fuck is wrong with me? Ugh…
Apparently all the fitness nuts foresaw their gyms closing and panick-bought every dumbbell, kettle bell, and anything else heavy they could find, because I can't find a single store that has weights in stock, Amazon included.