hiii. i vanished for a bit. i do that.

still mostly surviving, but in a context for thrive and happy gay life. have recently borrowed a couple Howard Sasportas books, its an adjustment after having leaned heavy towards whole sign house post 2011 reading the past few years. the house/sign correlation is really present with him linguistically, reminds me of the twitter blow ups around it

I've had a lot of somatic "wow this really feels like adolescence" since starting second puberty (which makes sense, really). to just, ordinary things, like hyperinflation

it makes me think that puberty never ends, you just get used to it if you're on the correct hormonal profile

like, yeah, i do kind of feel like I'm sixteen, or whatever the age that people feels themselves being even as they age

i just don't hate it, want to skip scene, this time

waking up at a quarter to 5am instead of a quarter past now

just
keenly aware of approaching solstice at a somatic level