@joanwatson and every time i complain about this i feel like it's such a trivial thing to complain about since i'm like saying oh no my parents wanna take me on vacation but like i guess i have to frame it as my parents are tempting me to go back to a very toxic environment that had me on edge literally every second and that genuinely makes me wanna kill myself

@joanwatson i don't want to see my parents ever again but here they are dangling this random vacation in front of me and i'm only tempted because i probably won't have the opportunity to go there again and so i can get my passport renewed for the future

@joanwatson and now i feel even more alone because i honestly have nobody to talk to except for one person and i feel so fucking alone