Getting up, putting on some comfy clothes... looking down at my body... and randomly thinking "ooh nice, I look kinda hot in this" 😇

It's just simple black leggings, black socks, and a soft, thin black sleeveless shirt with a deep neckline and some ruffles on the shoulders (I got that shirt at a flea market last week so it's new for me). They're just nicely hugging my body and making me look smooth and a bit curvy in a way I really like 😌
The shirt could even be a bit tighter for my liking, but it's already quite fine as it is.

Sadly I don't know how to take a photo that captures my perspective on it :/

(The downside of this outfit btw: It doesn't have proper pockets. I'll use the pockets of the hoodie I'm wearing over it now, but this only works as long as I stay at home. For going outside, I would need to put on a skirt over it.)

I'm soooo glad I took the chance to start dancing again, back in september  

Dancing just makes me so happy, and yet I always tend to underestimate how much I miss it in times when I don't regularly go dancing...

And also... easily developing some kind of crush on people who dance with me (and do it well) isn't a new thing... but it's still amazing.
In the past few weeks, dancing has once again been a catalyst (though probably not the only one) for a deep sensual and emotional connection that I wouldn't have expected in this intensity, even though I've known this cute person for years... I just feel so incredibly lucky  

Reading that "polysecure" book, and talking about it with @puddingschnecke ... I'm not even halfway through the book yet, but we already had some interesting points to think and talk about.

We talked about expressing emotions directly when they occur, vs. having to process them first before talking about them. And I had thought that I'm always the one who expresses them almost immediately, and it's really hard for me to hide what I'm feeling - while Lena tends to pre-process emotional stuff more before talking about it... at least for "negative" emotions - telling me about happy feelings doesn't need processing.

And that's when I noticed that it's kinda reversed for me. I can't keep "negative" feelings to myself for long, I need the situational context to still be fresh when I express them.
But surprisingly, I can sometimes be quite hesitant about expressing happy emotions O.o

Judging by how much I think back to that "dating is weird, just fall in love with your friends like normal people" post (which I can't find any more, need better search o.o)... I'm wondering if it might be fitting to describe myself as demi-romantic 🤔

I'm still not really sure how to differentiate romantic feelings from other kinds of attraction though, so it might be something else instead...

But I feel like I'm getting closer in some non-platonic ways to several of my friends, being excited about how cute they are ^^

... at very different speeds and intensities, but still, I'm seeing some kind of pattern there.

And yeah, being romantically attracted to someone I just met seems very un-plausible to me... I need at least some kind of other pre-existing connection (which is not very hard to build though, and can sometimes happen quickly if the situation is right).

Having this lovely person stay with me over night for the first time  😊

Knowing they have to get up a lot earlier than me 🙃 😔 🥴

Construction noise outside starts even earlier than that 😣 😬

👉 Being kind of awake for half an hour before they have to get up means more time for sleepy comfy cuddles and kisses 😊 

Hach... Tanzen tut soo gut, ich bin soo froh, dass ich wieder damit angefangen hab 🥰

Trotz wenig Zeit und Verpeiltheit und "ich zieh doch eh in nem halben Jahr um"... Keine Ausreden mehr, Tanzen ist selfcare* für mich, und ich hab es viel zu lange vermisst 😊

*) ok, eigentlich nicht direkt "self", weil Paartanz geht nicht so gut alleine. Aber ich muss mich halt selbst aufraffen, zum Tanzen hinzugehen.