Eve ✧ 𝔟𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔪𝔞𝔵𝔵𝔦𝔫𝔤

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COVID-realist transsexual zinester dyke learning how to use mastodon. Meta go to hell.

Profile picture: picrew of a white woman with shoulder-length curly brown hair in a baseball hat and glasses with a subtle trans flag filter on the background.
Header picture: screenshot of a wrestling show depicting a discarded purple-haired puppet next to a broken pearl necklace.

pronounsshe/her
websiteevelynf.mmm.page
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still masking?you bet your ass
Eve ✧ 𝔟𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔪𝔞𝔵𝔵𝔦𝔫𝔤23h ago
Going through puberty again at 40 is mortifying. Learning how to dress is mortifying. Learning how to carry myself and exist in physical space is mortifying. Learning how to be queer in public is mortifying. Everything is like *super* embarrassing. Still the best thing I ever did.
Eve ✧ 𝔟𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔪𝔞𝔵𝔵𝔦𝔫𝔤5d ago
I love the t-girls in my DMs.
Show threadEve ✧ 𝔟𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔪𝔞𝔵𝔵𝔦𝔫𝔤Mar 16
Anyway, thanks to my repressed transgender identity for making me feel unsafe in all spaces everywhere for most of my life, and also making me immune to peer pressure.
Show threadEve ✧ 𝔟𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔪𝔞𝔵𝔵𝔦𝔫𝔤Mar 16
When you feel fucked up and wrong your whole life, there's no benefit to parroting the ideology you've been fed -- it doesn't feel good to think the same thing as people with whom you don't feel safe to begin with, and knowing the truth and lying anyway is deeply corrosive to the soul.
Eve ✧ 𝔟𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔪𝔞𝔵𝔵𝔦𝔫𝔤Mar 16

The truth about how I resisted the amoral "groupthink" positions of my peers is sadder than just like, I'm more moral than them.

It always felt like my belonging was contingent. That I wasn't part of an in-group. The pressure of conformity meant nothing to me -- I didn't feel included to begin with.

I've been ostracized for being right too soon about israel and COVID. I recognized the former as a racist ethnostate as a literal child, and the latter a prelude to mass eugenics in 2020.

Eve ✧ 𝔟𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔪𝔞𝔵𝔵𝔦𝔫𝔤Mar 16

Obligatory Long COVID post: I have two known COVID infections, despite a high level of precautions since 2020.

I incurred post-acute sequelae from my first infection. First, persistent brain fog, killing my cognition for a full month. It lingered a while after that, but one month of total impairment.

That's also when I started noticing POTS-like dysautonomia symptoms. I get extremely winded changing my posture. Those have persisted for 4 years.

Specialists I've seen have done nothing.

Eve ✧ 𝔟𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔪𝔞𝔵𝔵𝔦𝔫𝔤Mar 16
Congratulations to Crash (2004)
Show threadEve ✧ 𝔟𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔪𝔞𝔵𝔵𝔦𝔫𝔤Mar 15
Same when it's a writer, like. What, their values are going to manifest NOWHERE in the themes of the thing? No, it's poison. Throw it away
Eve ✧ 𝔟𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔪𝔞𝔵𝔵𝔦𝔫𝔤Mar 15
I don't understand how people do the "separate the art from the artist" thing when the artist is an odious, gross actor. Not in a moral superiority way, just in a knee-jerk revulsion way. When I know someone's a creep, I hate looking at them
Eve ✧ 𝔟𝔯𝔞𝔦𝔫𝔪𝔞𝔵𝔵𝔦𝔫𝔤Mar 15
COVID and Long COVID really fucking suck. Mask up, protect your communities and yourself.