One of those days when you feel like your just really done with all the shit in life, fandoms, jobs, mostly everything because there is no support, just survival.
It's amazing how kids can just turn down the volume on life's fears, panic, depression, struggles when around. I had two and a half days with my nieces swimming, play games, going to the park, the market, watching bluey with them and answering curious questions. Was just uncle.
I want to meet many people but I don't feel that it is mutual online or offline. I have started to detach from many even though it hurts as I'm not feeling wanted. So I adjust my attention to others. I want to hang with these people but nothing transpires, I feel then hurt and spiral. I guess Im just wanting that belonging feeling when I should be happy with those who care and put in time to socialize with me.
Just wanting to be held, laying on the floor staring off.
I wish I knew how to deal with my brother better but he is always demanding I have to drop things cause he can't wait. It seems it only matters if it involves music, his computer broken or music downloads. You can't choose blood fam but you can choose your other fam.
Made it to lvl 40 in life today! Time for all the hugs, cake and friends?
Hey its the weekend! Yay! Enjoy, it's well deserved!
#fursuit #fursuitsaturday #fursuitfridayBack and neck are sore and so are shins. I would love this to stop.
The rites of passage for every IT worker:
"The Aurora" - Being in the presence of a malfunctioning computer automagically fixes it.
Sixth Sense - Correctly and accurately guess the break that took down the network.
Remote Brick - Successfully knock yourself out of the network by configuring the wrong port on a remote switch.
"Wanna see me do it again?" - Successfully reboot a device and have it come back before your network monitoring detects it as down.
Depression, tired of the grind and I just want to spend time with friends more and not think of work and know that things aren't obtainable due to this shit world.
Rix