NGL, at times I get a fair amount of satisfaction when this happens. Like; welcome to my world darling; do you not know what my face means? OH, that must be terrible. No, I’m not gonna tell unless you ask, and then i’m gonna act like you’re weird for not understanding right away! OH, what was that? did i not respect your space? I’m sorry, just explain to me all the ways how your space needs to be respected and ill try to get it right on my third try.Oh, its hard to explain what you need from me right now? Well, figure it out you can’t expect me to read your mind now can you. [all with a kind soft smile] (sorry, i’m a bit bitter today)

That’s okay. I think there’s a sense of validation in that experience. Seeing an NT struggle with understanding autistic culture and social interactions is validating of the struggle we experience with NTs. For me, it’s not that I find pleasure in their difficulty as if I’m getting a sense of revenge. It’s that I can see that there is a difference in our neurological design, so we both have to work harder to interact. Autistic people just happen to be the minority in a society designed for NTs, so we have more difficulties.

All in all what makes the struggle the most difficult for me is no cuddles, no physical affirmation. If I could just get my daily cuddles from someone, I’d be so much more balanced as a person. But now I just gotta act very casual around people while im actually just starving for some affection.

DUDEEE! I am the same way. I just need that physical affection and I’m good. It’s not that I want romantic or sexual attention. That would be nice, but not the point. There’s just something about cuddling and physical touch that seems to be a necessity for my mental well-being. I just need to be held, squeezed, or caressed regularly. It’s one of the reasons I like dancing as a hobby. There’s a lot of physical touch and interaction that helps me meet that need in an appropriate manner. Here’s a relevant meme you might appreciate:

Me and my ex used to get into terrible fights, but even when we were mad at each other, as long as she was touching me, I was ok.

Again, sorry for going so dark… not really having my day today… im in a venty mood

I don’t think you need to apologize. That’s what this community is here for: to support each other. ❤️