Personal Astrology vibe check:
I just got the biggest concentration of “Saturn beams” I’ve ever been directly aware of.
I was just sitting watching a trashy drama yourtube video, propping an ice pack on me with my elbow while drawing some cubes for a painting. At once I became aware of A cold painful despair entering the awareness, I looked at what I was doing and recognized both the feeling and my actions as Saturnian, so I then checked to see what Saturn is actually doing.