TheRuminativeRecluse🏳️‍⚧️

@TheRuminativeRecluse
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Welcome to my little nook, I am 31 and wanted a safe place to express myself. I'm closeted Trans and aspire to be pretty and feminine. I'm Bisexual again closeted though.

I can't be open right now about these things, I've just started my journey, thanks to a kind hearted soul, and now the dream seems more possible as reality.

I have memory recall issues so if I ask the same stuff over I can only apologise in advance.

I am single.

NameBrielle (But you can call me Bri)
PronounsShe/Her
HRT Since03-06-2023
TheRuminativeRecluse🏳️‍⚧️Sep 13, 2023

Okay so I've made a new account (I think)(bare with me everyone)

It should be;

[email protected]

I'm just figuring out how to log into that, it'll be a fresh start again. Feel free to follow me so I don't lose you lovely people 😊

TheRuminativeRecluse🏳️‍⚧️Sep 13, 2023
Gaymorning you beautiful souls 🌄🩷
TheRuminativeRecluse🏳️‍⚧️Sep 12, 2023

I'm on a journey to self discovery but want to outsource all the work.

If you're interested - apply within.

TheRuminativeRecluse🏳️‍⚧️Sep 12, 2023
I want/need a girlfriend.
I want/need a boyfriend.
In summary...
I want/need a friend.
Show threadTheRuminativeRecluse🏳️‍⚧️Sep 11, 2023

So okay, this is difficult to talk about, I haven't self harmed since like 2010. Not like cutting wise anyways, looking after myself and sleep deprivation I guess if you count those I fluctuate on.

I was seriously considering it again, I was and am feeling so tormented and conflicted.

The thing stopping me right now is thinking about losing E from blood loss. I know that sounds silly but that's what's saving me right now.

Show threadTheRuminativeRecluse🏳️‍⚧️Sep 11, 2023
Me to me: Eye see what you did there 👁️
Me: 🤦‍♀️
TheRuminativeRecluse🏳️‍⚧️Sep 11, 2023
My eye jokes are lame, but at least they can't get any cornea 👀
Show threadTheRuminativeRecluse🏳️‍⚧️Sep 10, 2023

Sorry everyone. I'm spiraling bad. Ofc thank you for your hugs and words l but I just am having a real bad turn right now. I slept all day and going to sleep again, I can't face being awake.

I can't explain it, it's a whole load of things all at once and my head's screaming. Trying to shut out bad thoughts.

TheRuminativeRecluse🏳️‍⚧️Sep 10, 2023

Retail therapy is all fun and games until you look at the hole burnt...

Trying to fill a void I guess.

TheRuminativeRecluse🏳️‍⚧️Sep 10, 2023

Feeling so incredibly low today.
Feeling too much like a friggin boy still.
Feeling flat.
Feeling.
Ugh.
😭

Sorry.