connected had also blocked me on Discord, and I had suspicions he manipulated them into cutting me off. I confronted him about it and he denies it, though I'm not sure who to believe.

He had admitted to his past mistreatment of me, but still refuses to reconcile even though I had told him directly that I already forgave him, but he had declined my reconciliation plea.

This isn't a cancellation. While he has repeatedly wronged me, I don't want anyone else to harass or threaten him.

there: strained relationships with former IRL friends and even family, me harshly rejecting my ex-girlfriend, losing a job and along with it, a lot of money, and it all even got to the point where I had considered suicide. Fortunately, I had no access to lethal/instantaneous/painless methods, so I could not make an attempt on my own life. If you are concerned about my safety, I am currently seeking therapy and I had reconciled with everyone in my personal life.

Other RPers whom we were both +

Come December 2022-January 2023, out of the blue, he told me he no longer wished to associate with me and apologized for impeding on my creative freedom, feeling he and I were holding each other back. He had subsequently blocked me on Discord, and I felt an immense amount of anger and resentment towards him, but was unable to do anything about it.

From there, after multiple failed attempts to come back to the RP scene, I decided to call it quits again and my personal life had derailed from +